When I first saw you on my computer screen, your words have kept me in a bond. I love you because of who i am when i'm thinking of you, and I dream of who we would be together, should that ever become possible. You are the one: the first person who doesn't simply look at me or through me, but sees deep into me. You are the only one who holds the key to my soul and knows the combination to my heart. When we chat, I become vulnerable, and I know that my deepest secrets and the things that make me hurt so much are safe with you. I trust you, and I trust myself in your love; because of this we will never again wander this earth alone. You have only to look at our planet, or gaze at the stars we both see, to know that someone cares and always will. Distance has not eliminated the possibilities, but simply made any time together sweet and cherished. Although I need not say it, --it doesn't matter how it is phrased, but how it is felt-- only you can feel it. My heart cried due to our distance of love, but i'm bond with a big promised which i can't break . I know my Love only with me..when she moves her eyes all around , i feel she can't see me there due to my emotion..
i'm not able to express my love in three words ..... but i want to listen that from ur soul....
Agian...
i don't know why this bad situation started in my life..... really destiny playing with human being. i think its play with me.. i think need to wait perfect time.. i thought yesterday lil quarrel but it should be become as well, but no..i was trying to stop myself to create distance between us.. but what i can did.. i try to contact 1st. but it was worsted. i had noticed she was online but only replied " i'm going ..." but she was conversation with friends.. leave it bad day. Night ....it was a horrible night. Morning... i was mentally preparing that i never contact first. in afternoon i had to do something. it was not possible today. so in that time i bet with my fate. if it has been done they i'll contact 1st. Hopefully it done.... really i never forget this hard situation. ( its related my business.)suddenly i look up my laptop.. wow she is online tooo suddenly i had written.... bad, bad, bad.... stupid ...she was seeing my msgs but she ignore it.... i see it first time..that how she's . i hate myselfff tooooooo much. really am stupid ... i'm disturbing .. i try to leave internet .. but its impossible . now... i have lil pain in my head...lil temperature .. need to sleep...........i think i can't but let's see what's next....
bleeding my love..............
i think now my time & luck is very bad, i'm losing myself . last night i had a bad night, may be i'm not yet conceit that smth had happened by me. i had slept 3am or 3:20am coz i was finding where create misunderstanding... & why happen this. why i i can't create a strong relation with my dream girl. i was so happy ...she was going to see movie (Eclipse 3) i had so interested to discuss about its lovestory , romance .....all. But that was wrong for me. she was tired ..but think & tell me...if a girl is working 11hours & then back to home..with more tiredness bad mood ( official ) . suddenly she is getting her bf call.. what have feeling in that situation . if it is bad then i should tell he is not a lover , just friend.
by the way we were continuing our conversation with touch of love happiness lil sad... in this time i was felling she was becoming lil upset.. due to my poor conversation.. & i was trying my best & changing mood but only replying two certain words .. that was strike in my brain & i stop call ...........& what will be happen in all night with her don't know yet. i can't manege & stopping my ego...
Today all day i'm waiting her response at last in afternoon she comes & msging me.. in this my i had tell ....forgive me, if smth created bad by me.. & she do it suddenly...
Now tell me..what should i think ????????????????????
-By Rabi-
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