Hahaha.... i can't stop to write me...these msg, which i got now from a friend..( lucky)
Beautiful lines : To die in love for someone is not the big thing, to live with that pain with smile forever  is the great real achievement.............

Agian...

i don't know why this bad situation started in my life..... really destiny playing with human being. i think its play with me.. i think need to wait perfect time.. i thought yesterday lil quarrel but it should be become as well, but no..i was trying to stop myself to create distance between us.. but what i can did.. i try to contact 1st. but it was worsted. i had noticed she was online but only replied " i'm going ..."  but she was conversation with friends.. leave it bad day. Night ....it was a horrible night. Morning... i was mentally preparing that i never contact first. in afternoon i had to do something.  it was not possible today. so in that time i bet with my fate. if it has been done they i'll contact 1st. Hopefully  it done.... really i never forget this hard situation. ( its related my business.)suddenly i look up my laptop.. wow she is online tooo suddenly i had written.... bad, bad, bad.... stupid ...she was seeing my msgs but she ignore it.... i see it first time..that how she's . i hate myselfff tooooooo much. really am stupid ... i'm disturbing .. i try to leave internet .. but its impossible . now... i have lil pain in my head...lil temperature .. need to sleep...........i think i can't  but let's see what's next....