Love is fearless. .

If you feel that you really love her, take the risk and fall. Love is fearless.

Some thoughts. ..

Here time around 5:10am today I mean this night I took good rest but due to some of my old habits I awaked 2 or 3 time middle of the night.  N chking msg. In these days by congregation I hve realised what's going on in her mind. I hv read from watchtower library g 9/09 3-4, I got smth.. which is helping me.  I know she has a big problem in her life. . N I had a wrong concept ....she got confused.  her actions there’s no assurance that they will be breaking up anytime. Action speaks louder than words or promises. Bla bla bla .  If you simply ignored the feeling, you would never know what might happen, and in many ways that was worse than finding out in the first place in life. you could go forward in your life without ever looking back. Simply If you don't care me. In other side about me.. kya am loving her much than her. I don't know. Im just playing my role. I hv read somewhere. ..Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage. I don't know how can I start a new love story which is good n right with God's word.  I got some suggestions ... opinion is , you should just go on with your life, love yourself, enjoy. If one day your paths cross again and you’re both single, then that’s good. But if she’s still in relationship n love, the good thing is that you didn’t waste your time waiting and hanging in there while she’s all secure and happy. So.... I feel like she has love but she is waiting for a time. .....  Everytime she is msging me....I LIKE u So its only the first phase of Love and I promise you dear that you feel that very often as you grow old. Love has its own stages and definitions, but hv to understand whts reality n what is not in the right time and person. By the way, I think I should give her freedom to be alone and decide on her romantic relationship, because some girls hate boys who insist with their own motives. well i hve to do more things if am caring her . She’s having his own problems as she said. I wants to fix her life first. I can't do anything to get her back, just be a real friend. She needs a friend now more than ever. People change feelings sometimes because of the trials they are facing, and they hope that people will understand them even if it hurts. Thanks for giving me a reason to live.  I know it's a difficult way. On behalf of this. ... I'll do as much I can. That's why I met u. I believe in minu.... she is perfect for me.  Dear Jeoh. you gave us a way ..n we met each other. Plz give me power n strength to build a unique n perfect friendship with her.

Miracle

Today was a great day for me,  I got some truth and I hv to believe it. Bcoz its real thing which is in my imagination.  I have been attend my 1st memorial day at bbsr with around 50 devote.  In that day I know smth about Jehovha.  And one more important things which I forgot to mention  here..... someone, my closest friend invite me to all this. Today I learn  some imp...interesting things about our life. Which is more valuable in our life. As she said.... mere liye ek perfect time aya nhi tha soooo I didn't get this way. So... time change and I got my ans.  I hv to promised that I'll do it ill obey God's rules and words. On my 1st congregation I met many people. . Whose r more friendly than my expectation. It was a nice memories for me. She is also happy bcoz im happy.  All these credit is going to her. I hv talked with her around 2hr. Really she is getting happiness n feeling good from spiritual discuss.  That's why I liked her much more....... how much I can't explain. .. I got all as she has wished.  God plz plz  help her ... 

About my last night

18-Apr-2014 2:21am
Its very bad , God ne mujhe itna dukh dene ke baad bhi again n again mere life mein koi khusi nhi mil pata he. Jo mein expect kar ta hun milta nhi he. Mene itna kya gunna kya he ya paap. Well I understood lil that God not give this .. its our destiny.  I think i hv done any big sin , thats why im getting my punishment.  Actually matter kya he God knows only.
Today was fine quite.  I'm with mom and came to uncle's home.  Evening was fine too. I think I slept lil earlier around 10:45pm ... I hv lil happiness after bad internet I able to talk with her. Due to congregation she can't talk me, but she commitment that she'll.  Well I wakeup around 2am and start thinking. .. why she didn't.   reason can be no time , may be she forgot may be she don't wanna disturb.   Mobile pe to balance zarur he...  Time..... kya after congregation ke baad usko ek ya do min mila nhi Baat kar ne ke liye. Or usko achhe se paata he ki I'm expecting her call. So here no meaning of disturb.  Humesa time mujhe quarrel karne ke liye ladkata he.. quarrel karne se kya phaida koi apna true heart se karegi ya chahegi then she or he can do.  Ase mein mein kya karun. Well I'll nt show her that feeling bad or sad. Kyun ki agar mein uske liye sari life bhi help ya sabkuch karunga to bhi woh samaj nhi payega koi uske liye intna sochata he. Pyaar kar te hein... so pyaar nibhayenge . Woh jisko pyaar karti he uske liye woh karegi. I know that. ... devils r working on me... may be I'll start fight then God plz mujhe maap karoge....