She had gifted me Worthless life

I don't understand wht need to do....iss  early morning. ... kya karunga...how handle this my life yr... everyday im taking decisions to stop....thinking
..but again n again coming into my thoughts. .. woh bolti he ki uski galti thi ki...that's frndship. ....yr wrong tha to....why 1year... why with me!!!!!,???? Kya or koi mila nhi usko..... itna jhooott... why did u this yr..  really i don't think that she has feeling. ... how is it possible yr... after a witness. .i don't think so....ki woh kisiko hurt karegi... magar wht is this... why i react like this... oh god help me ...plz ...i don't understand how i should start to talk with her... she cheated me!!!! Kya mein fool hun....... usko khusi milti he.. mujhe rulake... no i can't believe this.. then wht..why... me..worthless. ..